失落后的跑轰

很少自己会有失落的时候。上一次这样，是失恋时吧？和朋友吵架，自己也会失落。
而这次呢。。。
当你考试只拿到一半的分数，就知道什么是失落了。
自己，真的那么不够努力吗？还是能力只是如此？我不知道。
只知道，明明有两个礼拜可以准备，时间却都浪费了。
太多时间在多余的事吗？篮球打太久了？
或许吧。。。结果自己考的成绩反映出自己的时间分配的太不好了。

下个礼拜就比赛了。。。自己手头上却还有一大堆事还没做完。。。
真的喘不过气。。。就像倩所说的，活该><
自己找那么多事来忙，就该懂得如何去安排。

是时候，自己该醒了。世界不会为你停止转动。我该，开始去追回时间了。
我不怕追不上。球场上的快攻，都是我跑得最勤。只是现在追着时间，身边没有兄弟的陪伴。没关系，往前冲吧！来个上篮，搞不好能来个进算加罚！

捍卫对篮球的热情，努力为学业的拼劲。
时间，我会追上你。跑轰，我没输过!

我该和奈许一样，不跑到最后绝不停下。

日记xDiary

2.18.2011

The NBA Rookie game this morning didn't really disappoint me. From Blake Griffin's dunks to Dejuan Blair solid play, I love everything. The rookies had done a great job to get a win from the sophomores. What I would like to say is, the ex-Kentucky players, John Wall and DeMarcus Cousins carries the Rookie Team to the win. With a Rookie Game record of 22 assist, John Wall did makes the crowd to stand off their feet by throwing a bounce-alley-oop to Blake for the finish. He also dish some to DeMarcus for the one-hand Sledge hammer dunk. DeMarcus, scored a team high of 24(or 26?) points in the game. While the game is going to end, he throws up a off-the board-pass to Wall, who finish it with a dunk. Although playing in separate teams, but teaming back together is so easy for them. The chemistry bond between them doesn't break. I wonder if that happens too, when I play again with former teammates from Hustlaz.

日 十八 月 二 雨

今天又是雨天，看完球赛后和朋友吃下午餐，射射球，健下身，读点书，一天就在写完这篇文章后结束。感觉上，最近都发生了好多事。奇怪的，累人的，开心的，担忧的，伤心的，什么都有。

先从奇怪的事开开胃吧，我生平长到那么大，如果我欺负人，你骂我，我就会告诉你我为何欺负他。如果我连你是谁都不懂，你就报警说我欺负你，我会傻眼。说真的，我还没真正欺负过人，也从不欺负弱小。但偏偏，拜五上课的时候，同房的同伴就告诉我，宿舍管理处找我们，说我们被投诉欺负住我们楼下的一个人，而且他也报了警，但警察似乎不相信他，因为他说我们放闭路电视监视他。我听了差点没把吃过的午餐全吐了出来。夸张到了神的境界。这生中，最大的笑话。结果，得等到拜一，去见了宿舍管理员才知道要怎么做。

累人的呢，就是累人的书。读者化学，明明只是简单的化学效应，却要列称成千上万个步骤。最讨厌，就是背着这些累人的东西。可是还能怎么样？拜三有测验，不读的话考不好，怎么去考试？硬着头皮读，又会有反效果，咳。。。如果说是压力造成我累，还不如说，是自己承受不住那压力才造成的。人生啊，有压力才会长大吗？

很开心，这个礼拜，和自己新的球队一起打球了，全员大部分都到其，打了几场不错的球。
却担忧，比赛时，默契真的会来吗？大家一起做好份内的事，感觉上，这样就对了。但过于做着份外的事，真的就不对劲了。也许，这还是个欠缺效应的球队吧。希望，这几天内，真的能把不对劲的是搞好，才能一起享受比赛的乐趣。自己，也该做好我该做的事了。

伤心事，提了，自己也不会好过。感觉上，自己在和自己说话。
一个人的对话，永远都是孤单的。
突然有人回应，当然会感到温暖。

想着，一个远方的女孩。她，过得很好吧？也许适应了新的生活。朋友，也都增加了。
前几天接到她的电话，心里感到欣慰些。今天听见她的声音，感觉好像哭泣。
太思念一个人，和她接触后，真的会崩溃。是一个朋友告诉我的，我相信了。

信件，是否有送到信箱？是否有被她拆来看？打开的是我的心，被收藏在她心里。不打开的话，心就不会出现在，另一个女孩的信箱。怎样，都是在她身边。这就是等待吧？

一个人说话，一个人写日记。记着生活上的点滴，让自己记得，曾有那么美丽的生活，曾有那么思念的女孩。日记，就是为那份感动而存在的吧？

下雨天。

下雨天，真的让人很没有精神。
只想静静的，一个人，钻进暖暖的被窝里，舒服的睡一下。
冷冰冰的空气，像催眠剂一样，让我浑身充满睡意。
手脚像结了冰一样，没有体温，也么有力气驱动。

下雨天，期待的，就是彩虹。
红橙黄绿蓝靛紫，反射出大自然的颜色。
但是雨不停的下到夜晚，就连月亮也都看不见。
冷沉沉的气氛，真叫人感叹，人生真的很无聊。

下雨天，真的很寂寞。
连自己都会懒得理自己。
什么事，都懒得去做。
什么事，都很不想去做。
什么事，都放下不做。
我只要想你。

Injuries.

Remember how Penny Hardaway flies everywhere? Dishing out dimes and catching those Oops. T-mac ferocious 3 pointers just had every team in the league hate him except the Rockets. Do y'all still know how Grant Hill dunks like His Airness back in Pistons? Where are they now? What happen to them?

Okay, cut the crap, those 3 guys suffer from injuries which led them to their fall. Grant Hill still doing good in Suns, but T-mac and Penny just fall like a shooting star.

I'm not a professional baller, but I'm that kind of baller that play the game with passion and love. And, of course I get myself some injuries on the court.

My 1st ever injury on the blacktop is ankle sprain. It's quite a common thing as you can easily lose balance of your ankle. As the result, no more ballin' for weeks. Ankle spraining is quite troublesome as it affects your mobility. You can't walk like a normal guy and you have to rest until your ankle is completely heals. I can still remember before the day I enter University, I got my ankle sprain while ballin' with my homies and it's a tough period. I have to massage my ankle every night before bed to ensure the swelling goes off.

My knee, have some problems too. Back in secondary schools, I have problem in squatting. When I squat, I have difficulties in standing up again. I can't feel my left knee after standing up from a squat and i have stand with my right leg. This really makes me worry but when I went for gym and work on my calf muscles, my knees get to improve. I no more have pain in knees while standing up from a squat.

Fingers are the most important thing to a shooter and a ball handler. And my fingers, well, it's serious. First is the small finger which a ball hit it directly straight on it. The pain and the instant swelling really shocked me that time. I apply ointment and rub to make the swelling off but, it swells till now. My fourth finger too, face the same case and I went to a Chinese Sifu, and luckily, he saved my finger from swelling like the other. Although it's still a little bigger than the fourth finger on the left. My right thumb was sprained for four times. And I hurt it during its recovery period. Yesterday, I hurt it again. I really don't know this time when it gonna heal. I have practice in these few days and, I have to play with my injured thumb. I'm really afraid it might literally break.

Elbow. My worst nightmare. In my secondary school days, I got my elbow hurt by tripping on the floor and, I landed on it almost every time. The feelings of numb, pain, and burning sensation wasn't really a matter, what really matter is the fear of breaking my hand. I had a sick fall last week where I jump for a pump fake and that guy bang me while I'm in mid-air. I fell horizontally and landed on my elbow, again. But thank god, it's not broken, yet. That fall is sick and my elbow is still hurting now.

With a body of injuries, my friends call me Plastic Guy, because I'm the one who always got myself hurt during pick up games. But who cares? I just play for the love of the game. Haha. I should now take injuries seriously now as I don't wanna be like Penny Hardaway who ends his career at a young age. I still want to play the greatest game ever created, basketball.

Penny Hardaway reverse dunk.

街狗。麦克

街狗：怎么了啊？
麦克：心情不好。
街狗：哦，别影响我打球就好。
麦克：打球就会想起她，我不想打了。
街狗：那是你的事，但请别阻止我打球。
麦克：你去打啊。
街狗：你心情不好，我怎么打？
麦克：你不懂。
街狗：我当然不懂。又不是第一次了，心情还会那么糟？
麦克：她不理我，能怎么办？我爱着那个女孩。
街狗：那是你的事，我啊，失去了就放手，找个新的不就好了？
麦克：你以为，我是你吗？放不下她的手，放不下我对她的爱。
街狗：我不了解，你执着于一段没有未来的恋情干嘛？我的话，才不会为了女孩自甘堕落。
麦克：你不懂的爱。
街狗：为什么要懂？女孩嘛，这个没了，就找新的。这世界上又不是只有一个女孩。
麦克：我不是你，这世界上只有她一个那样的女孩。
街狗：好啊，你就继续靠在一边慢慢人家叫什么emo的吧。
麦克：那好，你也别想打球。
街狗：你认为你阻止得了我？
麦克：你看看你自己，防守都逐渐退步，连自己引以为傲的手感都丢了，怎么打？
街狗：是你，心不在焉影响我的反应。是你，犹豫彷徨影响我的命中率。
麦克：至少，助攻的专长还没失去。。。
街狗：也就只能那样。你就是那么柔弱。什么都不敢。爱得那么深，却害怕失去。
麦克：我不想失去我爱的人。
街狗：你就会让我失去篮球。
麦克：别扯到篮球好吗？

街狗：篮球让我出现在这里和你说话，你自己想想看，有谁珍惜你对篮球的热爱？你的朋友？     也只有你那班兄弟挺你，其他人？有嘛？从以前，你不是那么的坚强，面对所有挑战吗？陌生的嘲笑，周围的排斥，你自己一路证明了自己。也许，你达不到梦想，但是就是因为你自己，勇敢地捍卫那份对篮球的爱，我才会出现。这世界是现实的，残酷的道路只有你自己能相信。在球场上，只有遇见他的时候，才没寂寞。他走了，自己一人，还是得活。

麦克：我只相信自己的心。我想等待。我想要告诉她。我想要，至少我还能和她说，我爱她。我柔弱，或许因此，我爱得毫无顾虑。我不怕受伤，至少，我有尝试。

街狗：别说废话了。然我专心打球好吗？你也去专心考试。好吗？
麦克：我不懂，答应你，我会振作。
街狗：不是答应而是做到。请别成为我的负担。
麦克：放心吧，你只需顾好你自己在场上的状态就好。
街狗：我没怕过任何比赛。
麦克：把对篮球的热情，燃烧的更烈吧，往目标前进。放弃不是我的作风。

街狗：你也别放弃她，其实。。。我们是一起遇见了她。
麦克：我知道，就那一个夜晚，我们真的，爱上了她。
街狗：我不想承认但是，你要等她。我们爱的是她。
麦克：我知道。。。睡了，晚安。。。至少，心理上，我们还是同一个人。

情人节。。。你，快乐吗？

开始了练习赛，开始准备着球赛的训练，双腿，真的很怕会支持不住。

昨天是情人节，你，会孤单吗？也许距离真的把我们，狠狠的分开了。

你告诉我，你不想在等待这个未来渺茫的感情，感觉已淡，就是时候放下了。

我真的，不知道，该怎么回答你。

第一个情人节，就被距离给打败了，或许，我们都，爱错了吧？

不知道，心一直喊着，不知道。爱到底的理由，一个已足够。

想等你，真的等你回国。那天在机场，我喊得很清楚了。

或许你累了吧，不该那么自私，让你累下去，但是自己心里很明白，我不想放开你的手。

你的手很大，真的是打篮球的手，很好牵，牵着了，真的不想放开。

朋友，真的会比较好吗？我不知道。或许，很早以前就没把你当朋友了吧？

决定，还是得做，拖拖拉拉，只会造成更多的伤害。

人嘛，总得往前走，但是，我依然等着你。

你需要人疼，需要人关怀，偏偏我就不再你身边。

慢慢的，带着水罐上课已是习惯。不带着戒指，就不自然。

如果，你选择，放下，我们依然是朋友。。。球衣记得要还我，三年后吧？我们可以在一起射射球。戒指呢是你考好成绩的礼物，let dream comes true.实现你的梦想吧。 我也会，朝着我的梦想前进。你说过你想听我说：倩，我九月能飞了！

我一定会说的！

情人节，你快乐吗？你快乐的话，我就会快乐。

不管结果如何，我会等你。或许，不等你的话，我不知道，我是否会在等另一个女孩。

情人节，我会寂寞吗？想你的话，我会寂寞。

只想告诉你，柔倩，我爱你。情人节快乐。

我球衣背号不再是#3,而是#91了，代表九月十号，你的生日，代表九一年，我们的出生年份，代表就你（91同音)一个，我会等。

第一个，没有你的周末。

今天，打球又那么不小心的伤到了手肘。已不是第一次了，但是却没断，可能是跌硬了吧？
跟着一群不熟悉自己打法的朋友一起打球，默契的欠缺，真的很致命。输了没关系，却还不会反省，能进步吗？

心情实在不好，但在这当儿，接到了你在澳洲的第一通电话。
你好吗？有没有吃饱？睡得温不温？我好想你。
这些话我都不敢说出口，深怕自己会留下思念的泪。电话的另一边，你的声音怪怪的，因该不是哭着的吧？知道你一切安好，还真的很放心。慢慢习惯那里的生活吧，人生啊，就要享受，不然以后工作了还哪有时间玩啊？
记得要看袋鼠还有树熊，还有要买纪念品给我。

还有哦，澳洲的食物好吃吗？哈哈。
第一通电话，真的让我好温暖。前几天都不知道你怎样，真的好担心。

昨夜星辰昨夜风，画楼西畔桂堂东。 
身无彩凤双飞翼，心有灵犀一点通。
李商隐的无题情诗。我想你了，你，想我了吗？

送，别。

伤离别。
何日能再见？
我一人，能有几多愁。
只愁何时与妳，再相逢。
天涯海角，五年十年，
只愿，等妳，只妳而已。
何谓思念，我终于了解，
不在乎相逢何日，
那一刻，我还是会说，我爱你。

If I can change the world, what would I change?

I do care about the health of Mother Nature, I do care about starving children in poor countries, I do care about people that are suffering from natural disaster in certain regions, but, I'm not a Saint. If I have the ability to change something in the world, I would like to lengthen the time that I spent with her, my one and only baby princess. Not that I don't have sympathy towards starving children or do not care about Mother Nature, but without her, the world really meant nothing to me.

I get to know her last year through basketball and we play basketball together. Eventually we become good friends. We used to walk around INTI during the night, sharing interesting things in life and experiences. As time grows older, I fall in love with her. I told her that I love her and she accepted me. We become couples. But after 3 months being together as couples, she flew to Australia to pursue her studies. We never have a proper date before, never watch a movie together before. We do not have the time to do things that couples usually does. Time is never been fair to us.

If I'm able to lengthen the time that I spent with her, I can get to know more about her. We are able to understand each other more and know what we felt for each other. With more time to be spent together, I can take her for trips around Malaysia, take her to catch a movie in MIDVALLEY and bring her back home to have a simple dinner with my family. We will have the time to celebrate each others birthday together, and I get to hand her chocolate face-to-face in Valentines night, which is next week. The memories that we create will shared between us and will last forever in our heart.

But in reality, I can't trace time back. I had sent her off to Australia on Tuesday. The next time we meet might be 3 years later, after both of us finish our degree. But I will wait for her, because, I love her.




This is my micro-presentation topic that I get on Tuesday, the day I sent you off. And I just came out with this presentation out of my mind. And I present this in class. When I said I will wait for you because I love you, one girl just 'aww~', like she has touched by what I'm saying, haha. How's this presentation? Is it well written?
haha, I love you, Joanne.