The Art of Run and Gun: On and Off the court.

Run and Gun: A basketball offense that emphasize on 80% offense and 20% defense. The pace is increase to its maximum and is expected the player to shoot the ball within 7 seconds or less. Endless of fastbreak is used to break down the opponents stamina. Most famous used in basketball history is by Paul Westhead from the LMU and Mike d'Antoni in the Phoenix Suns.

I was a guy that loves to play in Run and Gun style basketball. It was my basketball philosophy: out run your opponents. I have a group of younger friends that play basketball with me; they are undersized but fast. So I came out with this plan to utilize their speed. I enjoyed the fast pace of the game. It's like an adrenaline rush whenever I get the ball. I go full speed down the court expecting my teammates to be running alongside with me. The motto is: We run together.

Off the court, my pace of life is fast, But I choose to slow it down. A few months after my major exam, I applied for scholarship. A few months later I was in college. And then I made friends. They left to Australia after a year, and I made new basketball teammates later. A few months later I was in Milwaukee. A year later I'm writing this post. It all happen in 3 years where my life changes a whole lot. Tons of things happened. Friends and relationship come and go. Mistakes were made and troubles were committed. But I slow them down. I delayed things that I could have done in one day for days. I felt that time will pass slower if I choose to move slowly.

Back to the court. The reason of playing fast pace basketball is that you will be able to beat people that are not used to it. By taking more shot attempts, you will make more shots. A high scoring games is expected. But if you don't have the feel of your right hand(or left hand) that day, you will simply just lose. It's like a gamble, where you put your game at stake by gambling  your luck. Luck is a beautiful thing when lady luck is with you. Yes, only when she is with you.

I never gamble my life. By saying that I don't want to, it is more of I don't dare to. I don't believe in luck. I'm afraid that I might fail. That is why I play by the rules. Preparing early. Do the right thing. Make decisions that favor yourself. Never a risk taker, I always plan my things. But sometimes, procrastinating results in making a one-option decision(its not even a decision). So I take the risk. But I got lucky 8/10 times. Still, I'm not a risk taker. That is why, in relationships, I don't quarrel. I will be the one that said sorry first to clear things out. I might be a boring person. But that's just me.

Dropping the ball on the court, you know winning doesn't come easily. You have to be patient. Years ago, my teammates and I planned a "Old Team VS New Team" match. Of course I was in the new team. I told my teammates to go all out running and gunning. We were losing until the 3rd quarter. At the beginning of the 4th, my plan worked out. The Old Team was out of breath catching up with our fastbreak. We won. Because we hustled 3 quarters believing that we will win.

I'm never a patient person, that is why I dislike fishing as my dad loves it. But for that one girl I chooses to wait. I felt that waiting is the only thing I can do for right now. I felt that things might work out if I don't push it. Maybe lady luck will be by my side this time. Things did turn out well a little. But this time is the 2/10 times, lady luck just left me alone like that. I thought caring for her through words is enough for her at the other side of the world. It is never enough. I thought by loving her naturally and pure is sincere enough for her at the other side of the world. It is never sincere or real. I thought seeing each other through the webcam is enough for her at the other side of the world. But another side of myself yells: Yo dawg, you are seeing her once a month but motherfuckers back there sees her everyday, you gon lose dawg, watcha' gon do? You 8000miles apart dawg! Two years might be short, but it's enough for you to lose someone you actually put your heart into. Two years might be long, but it's not enough for you to get over someone you love for 7 years.

I begin to mix it up a little. Run some fastbreaks in pick-ups and playing some spot-up 3 point shooter role. Things turn out quite well as I fit into some half court offense and I gained some respect from the people here. But I'm still happier on the break. When I run, I don't feel tired, I'm happy deep inside me as I run at full force; as fast as I could. I'm still a run and gun guy, but sometimes I have to change to fit myself into the system. Basketball is a team sport. That is why you follow the team's rule. One thing that will not change is: I'm gonna run all the breaks that I can get. Because I love basketball.

I begin to work in this semester. Trying to fasten my lifestyle a little bit so that I will not be packed up with unfinished work. But in certain days, I still want to lay around and let time passes. Changes are hard to adapt but I have to learn to adapt. This is a part of growing up. Life is never smooth. You enjoy the roughness, or you can cry about it. I don't like to be labeled as a cry baby.

Last Note:

Everything happens for a reason. It's a challenge from our Creator and we have to do our best to overcome it. Life might not be the same anymore when one of the pieces is missing, but you have to fill in the space yourself. My philosophy only applies to me. I don't force it on others. And that is why when two people with different definition of life comes together, it never work out. I knew it from the beginning. But I took the risk. I gambled my piece of soul. In the end, I lost. Losing is hard, but it makes you wanting to get up and fight again. Just because I don't believe in losing twice in a row.
It's like the Run'n'Gun, if you don't gamble, you will never know when is lady luck with you.

Summer has come and past. Summer has come and past.

 It was my first ever summer in Milwaukee, enduring heat that is hotter than Malaysia's. It was a terrible experience when my bed was drenched in my sweat after I woke up in the morning. I was able to escape the  midsummer nightmare  in mid of July. It was the day that I moved to my new apartment that I shared with a friend. It is air-con-included. My summer was divided into different phase that I will never forget. The list goes like this:

The ugly:
Lost a friend. Actually treasured it but never expect that things will turn out like this. It was a 360 degree twist. Unbelievable and surprise. Never figure out if I should laugh or cry over it. Learned a lesson that should never ever treat someone close before you know him or her well enough. Self confessed that I should cut down my craps and get conversation serious enough to start a war. Disappointment mixes with What-the-fuck-ment. All I could say is, sometimes when I act like I don't give a fuck, my middle finger actually does.

The Good
My physics lecturer is a good guy who talks like an AK-47. But he is kind enough to explain in detail every physics concept that I don't understand. It was a fun class. Glad that I made the right choice to finish both physics classes in the summer. On the court, I received some advice from an OG. He told me to do what I want to do instead of what I'm forced to do. You don't success through your gene but your hard work. That's what he said to make me pushing myself a step more than before.

The Bad
Copped two basketball kicks in the summer with a total of only $80. Got a Reebok Zigencore for $50. Used about 3 weeks to get used to the Zignano. Cushioning wise isn't good as my heel hurts after hustling for rebound. But it increase my speed with that Zignano tech(It propels me forward whenever I run).
A Nike Zoom Hyperfuse 2011 for $30. Returning to the Air-ride after retiring my Nike Zoom Hustle. Forefoot Zoom Air aids me a lot in lateral movement and sprinting. But the phylon midsole did not help much in the heel cushioning. I prefer the Hyperfuse more as I am always a big fan of the Air cushioning. Despite that I never exclude myself in testing different tech-ride. Next ride? the adizero Crazy light. Yes, I am willing to risk my basketball career if its price drops to an affordable number.

The Fun
I have a two-week break after my final lecture ended. Traveled to West Virginia to visit my bro and then started a one week trip to Washington DC and Philly. Travelling back and forth between states ain't fun. But the trip was memorable. Visited historic place and tasted Malaysian cuisine cooked by Malaysians. Damn, it's been a year since I ate Malaysian food. Celebrated Hari Raya at the Malaysia Embassy was a hell of an experience. Well, I'm staying in the Midwest so it isn't easy for me to travel to the Malaysia Embassy. Went back to West Virginia after the trip and chilled there for week. Ball there with them regulars. Enjoyed the last few days of my holiday.

The end.
Back to Milwaukee facing the new semester. It is gonna be a hard one. But I fear no one other than myself. So I will take it like a man and bang it like a beast.

Wake me up, when September ends....

Missing Pieces

I try'na get things done,
But I couldn't,
My head is all about you, girl,
So I,
Let this flow  Take over me,
and,
lay back and continue missing you,
'cause you know, you my first love

最後のキスはタバコの flavor がした
ニガくてせつない香り X2


3 months gone by I still haven't seen you
All day long I've been missing you
I try to text you but you never text back
Waited all night I'm prepared to get sad
I know you busy, you on your internship
I try not to interrupt, but I miss you in my sleep
Took out my phone, starring at our photos
Summer's gonna done, that's how fast time flows
Started to feel alone when the cold wind blows
The night falls down my mood's getting low
For once I thought we are there so close
But tonight in the cold I felt I lost
I try to hold it on, I keep on running
Never giving up I hope you hear me
Closed my eyes when stress got me fatigue
Can't take it no more, 'cause I miss you badly


最後のキスはタバコの flavor がした
ニガくてせつない香り X2


You are always gonna be my love
いつか誰かとまた恋に落ちても
I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
今はまだ悲しい love song
新しい歌 歌えるまで X2


I wake up, brush my teeth, check where my class at
You stand up, brush your teeth, but you going to bed
I wonder how you are, are you doing all good
I wanna give you a hug, (damn) like I could
Cooking my spaghetti, I'm missing you
Ballin' on the court, girl I'm missing you
Finish my classes, you in your dreams
When you wake up, I'm still at the gym
Day and night is what separating us up
But my love for you, that's ain't no doubt
Sitting on my chair at 2am in the morning
Closing my eyes, let宇多田光tell you what I'm thinking


最後のキスはタバコの flavor がした
ニガくてせつない香り

明日の今頃には あなたはどこにいるんだろう
誰を思ってるんだろう

You are always gonna be my love
いつか誰かとまた恋に落ちても
I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
今はまだ悲しい love song
新しい歌 歌えるまで


.........


Hikaru Utada, and her song "First Love" that was in the hook, and the beat by some anonymous guy I used...

A little boy and Slam Dunk.

Here is a story. A boy. An anime. A ball.

It was 2000, a hot afternoon weekend, in small but comfy house located at a small town, where a boy was lying down on the floor after a nice home-cooked lunch. The thing that was going to happen next had changed the little boy's life, forever.

Okay, this might sound a little bit childish and unbelievable, but the next thing the little boy did was switching on the TV. The show that was on the TV screen was the 1st episode of "Slam Dunk", a famous Japanese anime that had popularized basketball in Japan. Of course, that little boy did not know anything about it. Sakuragi Hanamichi is the main character of the anime and he is famous for his innocent feeling towards basketball. That moment, the little boy thought to himself, hmm, basketball is fun, why not I start playing it.

It turned out most of his friends watched the anime and were interested in picking up a new game for their PE class. So every Wednesday, the day that the PE class was schedule, the boys and also girls will gather in the basketball court and start to play ball. Of course, none of them know how to dribble or shoot the ball. And their PE teacher did not teach them the right way to play the game. But they enjoyed the process of playing a new game.

Weeks gone by and they started to get a little bit better. The little boy was excited every night before PE class. Imagining himself grabbing rebounds and dunking the ball like Sakuragi. Let's be straight, who didn't ever dream of dunking the ball? Before he sleeps, he prayed that it will not rain during PE class.

Dream and real life are opposites. The little began to be left out by his friends. He was chubby and he couldn't run as fast as his friends. So they chose not to pass the ball to him. That little boy tried to play hard to gain acknowledgement from his friends but he failed. Yet, he didn't give up. He didn't miss any of the Slam Dunk episodes too.

Rejections on the court has no effect on his love for the game. As time grew, the passion grows. He worked hard everyday trying to show his friends that he is worth passing the ball to. Seeing that little boy has so much passion into basketball, his dad came home from work one day with a new basketball on his bike. The little boy had received his first basketball in his life from his dad. With a ball with him, he would cycle to the nearby court and start playing there. Sometimes with his baby brother, and sometimes with some friends from his neighborhood. Bare feet on the concrete court. His feet were burning, and so did his passion for the love of the game. Imitating Sakuragi's moves, he dream of being able to play like Sakuragi one day.

Then there was one day when he caught the ball at the free throw line. The boys and girls were in their PE class again. Without hesitation he shot the ball. It went in. That was his 1st basket in his life. His excitement of making the shot was not shared with his friends as his friends could score better than that. But that was enough for him. He smiled.

Years gone by in his primary school, and he was still chubby until he started his high school's life. His friends didn't pass the ball to him even if it was their last time playing together. But that little boy didn't let that caged his dreams. He continue to pursue it and the rest is a whole new way of life. No, he didn't make it to the NBA. He ain't even a player for his high school.

But basketball taught him a lot. He learned how not to give up easily. He learned how to make decisions. He learned how to value every teammate on the court. It is because of what he have faced before, he treated very teammate he played with the same. That is why he valued friendship so much. Basketball taught him how to live his life.

That was 14 years ago. When I first started to play basketball. I'm writing this from the land I dreamed of going there. The country of Basketball. I will not forget how pure was the feeling was when I first touch the basketball. It was Slam Dunk that planted the seed of passion in me. 14 years and I'm still improving my game. It was basketball that brought me here. Teaching me not to give up your dreams easily. I make it here with a scholarship, but not a sport scholarship. If it weren't for basketball, I would have give up when I was told I ain't making to nowhere by my teacher. If weren't for Slam Dunk, hell knows what the Fuck I will be playing now?

Baller4Life.

My heart is still beating fast every time I re-read the whole manga series.

吠-街狗

我站在这里吠 无情逆风狂吹
不知道自己 身在何处何方
被霸王控制了 前进的方向
警告的书信  困着自由思想
到底谁对谁错 谁是恶魔天使
我不知所措 见证这个乱世
催泪 弹（但）无法打击这份勇气
水炮                 无法阻止梦想前进
这不是叛乱 这是一个思想
团结所有战士 不管东岸西岸
静坐面对霸行 容忍面对蛮横
不再保持沉默 勇为人权抵抗
站在独立象征 古老帝国广场
不向霸王低头 迈向民主希望
街狗来自西岸 警言困着声音
只能站在这里 对勇者致敬

1 for the people
2 for their rights
3 for the Heroes
Who sacrifice their lives
4 for the motherfuckers and the po-po
Who gave us the promise, that they won't hurt us anymore

I say 1 for the people
2 for their rights
3 for the Heroes who sacrifice their lives
If y'all with me, you better get this right
Hail 1 2 3 Fuck the motherfuckers

双手合十 为所有人民祈祷
希望这一次 社会国家安好
捍卫着自由 大家不分老少
解开这锁链 脱离腐败主脑

拿起麦克风 讯问那个骗子
你所给的若言 是否真的薄如纸
看看你所带来 你所谓的和平
还有那个他妈的fucking潜水艇
人民的健康 受到莱士病的威胁
邪恶的阴谋 企图破坏战士团结
我们受够了 你的霸君统治
晶如姐姐的言论你也企图限制
这一次 我们不再承认弱小
亲爱的自由 让雨恒让你知道
帝国的傀儡 还有脑残的帝王
不管你是谁 请你睁大眼睛看
帝国的子民 已经准备好反抗
拔起正义的剑 为国誓死奋战
This is a movement for a brighter future
You can arrest a person, but not an idea.


1 for the people
2 for their rights
3 for the Heroes
Who sacrifice their lives
4 for the motherfuckers and the po-po
Who gave us the promise, that they won't hurt us anymore

I say 1 for the people
2 for their rights
3 for the Heroe who sacrifice their lives
If y'all with me, you better get this right
Hail 1 2 3 Fuck the motherfuckers

睡前故事

好久好久以前，在一个很遥远的王国，住着一位小公主。小公主自小聪明活泼，一直都是国王的小甜心。但是小公主长大后，却得了睡不着的病。她因为在皇族课堂上里的功课心事重重，每一晚都无法入眠。国王慌了正着，马上下旨：召集所有催眠师，只要能让小公主安心的睡觉，就把公主许配给他！

结果隔天,皇宫前来了三个人。
第一个是个催眠师女孩。“我有办法治好公主的病，把公主许配给我吧！”
国王一口拒绝的说：“你是头壳烧坏了哦？我才不会把女儿许配给蕾丝边！”
第二个是邻国王子。“我没办法治病，但公主嫁给我，我能给她好生活。”
国王也拒绝了他。“你眼睛是瞎了不会看懂我的指示哦？不会治就走！”
第三个是个平凡的小伙子。国王不屑地说“小伙子，你不过是个平民，你能做什么？”
“我能只好公主的病，不过她需要陪我去散步。”
国王看了看，想了想，把公主交给了小伙子。

离开了皇宫，小伙子马上把小公主带到王国的西部。那里是个平凡的乡村，村民都穿着破旧的衣服。“公主你看，这里就是我的村落，我们这里的人都没办法像城市的贵族大吃大喝，能吃上三餐就很好了。”小伙子说。
“怎么会这样，父王的王国不是很繁荣吗？”
“不过多么繁荣，总会有贫困的部分，不过我们并没有因为这样而泄气哦！”

小伙子又把小公主带到了王国的另一半部。
“你看那个叔叔”
“小伙子，他怎么只剩一只腿呢？”
“在我们出事之前的那个萨斯桑战争里，他为了守护这个王国而失去了一只腿。”
“怎么会这样。。。”
“不过他依然很努力的活着哦，他现在是酒吧的老板呢。”

走着走着，他们在街道上遇到了一个老乞丐。小伙子马上把身上所有的钱，分了一半给老乞丐。“老爷爷，您去买点吃的吧，我能给的，也只有那么多了，对不起。” 老爷爷缓缓的点头，示意着感谢小伙子。老乞丐走了之后，小公主问小伙子说：“你给了一半的钱，那你之后怎么办？”小伙子说：“我可以再想办法啊，毕竟老爷爷比我需要那些钱。我们都得帮助比自己不幸的人不是吗？”

之后小伙子前者小公主回到了皇宫的湖边坐着。“公主你看，这王国里有好多比你更有烦恼的人呢，不过他们都依然努力地活下去啊！你的烦恼，不过是那么一点。别被它击败，好吗？别让它压着你。试着放松自己，你就能睡好了。”

当夕阳把湖边都变成橙色的时候，他们就此到了别。
那晚，小公主睡着了。
隔天，国王马上召小伙子到皇宫里，把公主许配给了小伙子。
就这样，小伙子和小公主就live happily ever after.

Good Night.

春天里的夜晚

放了个很长的春假
本想打算用来复习自己还不熟悉的课
结果大半时间都浪费在看球赛与健身
功课到现在都还没完成
一瞬间，隔天就开学了。

终于感觉到春天的拥抱
暖暖的阳光
开始把密尔瓦基的美一一发掘了出来
小鸟们已结束了冬天的旅程
开始回到温暖的家乡。

每一天早晨
吃完早餐
就沿着街道
漫步走到健身房打球健身
之后便乘搭巴士到市镇吃午餐
经济饭的阿姨其实人还蛮好的
打包的午餐都特别大份
吃完午餐便到图书馆温书
温完了又回健身房锻炼
买了晚餐才回家为书豪哥加油
一天就这样结束了

有天闷了一整个下午
就随着学长骑了12mile的脚踏车
都另一个小镇剪头发
回来的路上刚巧就遇见了来密尔瓦基游玩的老朋友
和他一起吃晚餐聊天
感觉
我们大家都还是大一时那个老样子

转眼间
假期快结束了
手头上的作业却还没完成
懒散的春假
其实我也过的蛮充实的

                                                                   后半段的学期

 将以这幅

八十年代台湾黑道造型

来火拼考试

You are my Valentine-Street Dogg Feat. Johann Pachelbel

当节奏落下 我只想在这里 表达出我对你的爱意
只想让你知道 你是我的唯一
美国妞 中国妹 我都从不尬义
不管多远 你都一直在我心里
过了多久 我都不曾想要放弃你
想不通为什么 对你那么执意
是天分 还是缘分 我都从不在意
心理面现在 只有一个心愿
想快点读完书毕业 回去团圆
已不知道留学 时间过了多久
电脑前的你 总带走我的忧愁
看不见的思 说不出的念
抓不住的遗 遗失了的憾
爱情跑道上 我拼了命的冲
再把回忆写在巴赫的卡农

还记得 当初 坐在你的桌旁
朋友问我是不是 天天往你那里看
不知不觉心 已经被你占据
只好拿出勇气 来对你表白
我不怕被拒 我看得很开
我努力下去 因为你天真可爱
想证明给你看我 这次很认真
我想大声说出来 我爱袁惠珍
考场里的画 我送了给你
Eminem的歌 变情诗给你
生日那一天我偷偷 亲了你的脸
直到现在回想还是那么的甜
天涯海角 我所许的誓言
海枯石烂 我们不说再见
紧紧牵着手 一起私奔到月球
跟你在一起 我希望时间会停留

在密尔瓦基的夜晚
拿起麦克风 我只想继续对你唱
舞台下 只有你是观众
舞台上的我 依然为你那么疯狂的 唱
巴赫弹曲 街狗狂饶
对你的爱 在节奏环绕
八千多个里 根本不是问题
就算吵了架 我道歉不就好 吗
就算分开 啦
我都不管 啦
不管有没有结果
我都还是继续追着下去
我不放弃
直到那一天我追回那一年的你
节奏开始慢 了
夜也开始累 了
在卡农曲的最后一句
我想说 我好爱你

情人节的你和我。

上一个情人节，我写了一篇给我的上个女孩。
这一个情人节，依然写了篇。不过。
女孩却不同。
这篇的女主角，是我第一个情人节的情人。

喂，女孩，情人节快乐。
本想写篇长长的文章来感动你一下，可是明早要早起，就省下来了。
其实是为你着想，忙了一天，累了，应该没力气看长文吧。
所以来点轻松的。

第一张合照

当时的我们还真纯啊

你还不会化妆

我也还没那么霸气

平凡的小孩

约着平凡的会

第二张合照

是在球场上

脸上的胡子

都剃的很干净呢我

长大的我们

第一次在KL看电影吃东西

我开始学会扮欠打的样子

惊讶的样子

落寞犹豫

不过这张的我们

还挺可爱的

要是你喂我吃，那该多好。

你扮酷也未免也太酷了吧。。。

这张很蒙，但是这是唯一一张，我们笑得最甜的。

我们的合照，就在这里停下了。

有点后悔没跟你拍多点照片。

咳，感人触心的话改天再说。

今天呢，情人节，彼此快乐就好。

不管我们时隔多远，我们都要快乐。

永远都跟你站在同一条道路上，

有天，我会牵起你的手。然后一起跑向未来。

在等我亲亲吗？我偏不~哈哈哈。

我的相机快门还抓的真实时候。

Chasing Mitsui

We were up by a few points, and, our opponent hit a 3 point shot.
Our turn for offense. I ran down to the corner as usual.
Waiting, and then, the moment arrived, I got the ball.
Without hesitation, as my D was a foot away from me, I jump, and shot the ball.
Swish.

That was just the beginning.

I am playing in my schools intramurals league for my friend, and we are in the last league. Teams that do not have enough players are send to this league, and random guy who wants to play will be assign a team. We lost the first game. I was frustrated and I told myself I have to win the next. My teammates are good, they can play good ball, but the fact that we just played one game together, the bond isn't close yet. But the second game was different, all of a sudden we were all connected.

In the game, the second time I caught the ball, no dribble. Catch and shoot. In the same spot.
So did the third one. I was feeling good, and my sense told me, things are working out today.

At the beginning of the game, I was shocked to find out that they are all taller than us. A black guy is their center, he stood at 6'4. The other guys are at a 5'11 average. I am 6'0" and I am the tallest guy on my team, not to mention 2 5'8" guards. But when the game starts, we play hard defense. Our defense led to their turnovers and we scored every time they turn the ball over. We protected the paint well enough to stop their center from demolishing it.

When I hit my fourth 3 point shot, our oppnents were like: shit just got serious. One of my friend was the referee that day and he was: Owh~ here and there.

We steal, we grab rebounds, we challenge shots, we were pushing them hard, pressuring them all the way.

45 degree, my teammate passed the ball to me, it was too low for me. But, once I grabbed it, I jumped, and shot it. Nothing but net. My fifth 3 points shot. As I ran back for defense, I did the MJ shrug like I don't know how I did it. I think I did amaze the opponents crowd.

The 1st half ended. 33-14, I scored 15 points, 5-6 shooting. I scored more than the whole opposing team.
My teammates greeted me, praised me, and gave me 5s.

In the 2nd half, I missed 3 3points shot, one was totally ridiculous shot as I tried to contest for a 4 point play, but I failed to draw the foul. And as the opponent scored, we returned with a couple 3 points plays from my Korean teammate. Terrence, the small forward from our team hit a 3. Then, I dropped my 6th. 18 points. Another shot I shoot off the dribble, the center touched it which caused the ball to miss the rim. My teammate caught it in the base line and passes it to me out from the double team. I hit the lay up. 20. Bang.

The game ended with my chinese teammate scoring and the 2 5'8" guards fastbreaking.
When the whistle blew, 62-33, we won by 29 points.

It is my first 20 points game. Although it is just a small tournament, but it is something that I will never forget in my life. That day was also the 2nd anniversary of my Nike Zoom Hustle. The shoe that follows me through every tough games, blacktop and hardwood. This big win is what I gave him as a present.

A day before that game, I hit a 3, which I shot it high and smooth, the parabola and the revolution were at its perfect to make it nothing but net. And then what Mitsui said in Slam Dunk came to my mind, 这个声音，让我特别精神！

Chasing my dream. That was just, a beginning.

愛してる

我们亦不是朋友

亦不是情侣

我们的未来

伸手怎么也抓不透

我不知道是否真的了解你

不知道你几时会听超大声的音乐

但知道你压力时

会乱唱歌把压力都唱出来

我不知道你多久才会气消

但每次吵架

你都说一小时不跟我好

我不知道你吃饭的习惯

但最后一次跟你吃饭时

你都一直叫妹妹多吃蔬菜

我不知道你要的是什么

但我知道

我想要给你幸福

其实很多时候

我自己

也不了解自己为何那么爱你

我

是个很爱你的男生

愿意为你解决问题

愿意一辈子站在你那里

愿意等待你的回应

愿意为你做好多好多事

有些时候

我好想知道

是否

你也爱着我

是否

你也同样的

看见我会甜甜的笑

但是

我很害怕

扑你最后的约

是以宴宾的身份

我看得见

我想改变

就算失去

至少我已尽力

我很幼稚

也很大方

大方地

能包容自私的你

因为

就三个很简单的字

我爱你

Smile

I'm tired. Very tired. After a long day, my body was worn out by classes.
It's Chinese New Year and I feel alone, because I'm not with my family.
But the skype sessions with my dad's side and mum's side really made me felt beloved.
At least, I still get to see them in Chinese New Year. It was heart warming.

And then later today, after finishing some homework, I decided to look at your blog and I saw that post.
I was shocked, thinking"傻瓜，直接跟我说不是好。。。"
I really appreciate it, you make my day a lot more better.
I don't know what to say but, I love you.

Ps, next time write a longer post. =)

等一个人的视映

等故事结束时
结局是否会美好

等待着一个人
被一个人等着

心情低落
只能静静的
轻轻的等
她的出现

明明自己
被忙碌的一天折腾了
还是等待着
她抽出的时间

凌晨与下午的分差
冬天与夏天的不同
是否挨过了这一切
见面的那一刻
会是自己这一辈子最难忘的

模糊的双眼
疲累的新房
淋伤的躯体
我走下去的推动力
除了家人与同伴
那个女孩，也追了六年

男人不能哭
绝对不能在敌人面前露出破绽
但此刻
却好想在她的胸怀里
大哭一场

失去的勇气我还留着
你会等待还是离开
杰伦的晴天
听了几遍
都还是那么伤感

但是，不管是下雨还是下雪
撑了过去
就是晴天了。

我，从没离开过，等待你的位置。

春天

家乡里的人
都忙着过年了
而独自在外的我
才刚要开学
四季中，现在是春天
但密尔瓦基似乎被春天遗忘了

雪如雨下
在密尔瓦基建立了白雪王国
但是，雪也不是永远的美
被清理后的道路
留下的是黑黑的污雪
一个人走在道路上
心里浮现出孤寂
一步步在雪地上留下脚印
想起与他们许下一起造雪人的承诺

想着要开课
不知面对的
又是怎么样的挑战
不知是否
还有精力去克服
那些成长的障碍

自己的双脚
要跟着自己的意念往前跑
才是人生
每个人都会做梦
但只有往前跑的人
才会达到梦想

也许有些梦是达不到的
但是至少
自己老了以后
能对自己说
我曾经追求过。

Indulging In The Scent of Love

To my beloved lover:

Though time may take away your beauty
But I my words your beauty should stay
Though years might tear us apart by death
But in my writings as lover we should live

I indulge in your beauty
Where you seduce me with your eyes
The eyes of a Princess, filled with innocent of a child
Where you made me smiled with your lips
Such soft and pure as the feather of the swan
Where you soften me with your hair
Smooth as silk, flowing with the scent of the secret garden

I indulge in your personality
Where an angel I saw in you
A kind-hearted woman like Cinderella
Where a mature woman I feel in you
As I felt inferior when I am immature than you

Is this love, or just mere obsession in you
I asked myself for years
Why is not possible for me
To forget you, but rather the feeling growth inside through years
I try to find an answer
But nothing reply, as I followed my heart till this day
I know I am indulging myself in the scent of love

Sitting alone in this lonely room
Where the snow is falling from the sky
Cold, but warmed by you
Though future might not get us together
But in my heart forever you belong

No matter how long time may fly
Forever, a man sitting on a chair,
will be waiting for you, in his heart.
I Love You.

                                                                                          From: The man who loves you

Ohaiyo Ohio!

This was my second trip since I came to the States. The first trip was to Chi-Town during Thanksgiving break, where I got to visit the Jordan statue in United Center with my homie. But the days I spent in Ohio was the most memorable experience for me.

It was Winter break after a week of hectic finals in Marquette, I traveled 10 hours from Milwaukee to Ohio alone, just to meet up some old friends. We decided to gather during the Winter break, and we choose Ohio as it is the center state of all four of us. The four guys that used to be roommates back in INTI college. This is going to be the first time we met each other since the JPA briefing back in July in Malaysia.

I wasn't bored in the bus as I took the initiative to talked with a law student. I was shocked that she was reading her law text book on the bus. Her name is Tania. She is a sweet girl with a cute voice. We talked a lot but we still had some awkward silent moment. After arriving in Chicago for a transit, I wrote down my facebook name for her but till today she did not add me. That ain't sweet, girl.

8 hours from Chicago to Ohio wasn't a smooth ride. I reached Columbus around 7am and I decided to rest for an hour before planning my way to my homie's house. The next thing happened made me relief and grateful. My other homie called me and said that they were on their way to fetch me from the station. I wonder if I would lost myself in Columbus without them fetching me.

Finally, I was in his house, and I met this one kid, who loves football so much and is a high school basketball player. So I was like, lets visit Ohio State University's gym and play some ball. After having some Chinese dishes for lunch, we walked around OSU's compound and took some nice pictures. OSU's gym is huge. Much bigger than Marquette's. We played a game with some Chinese, and the game ended ugly. We lost the game and the Chinese are rude. We were really pissed off and that kid was pissed too. We went to work out. That kid is cute and funny. That night, we were following a football game and Colts needed a touchdown to win the game. And with 10 seconds left, Colts touchdown and walked away with the W. Both of us shouted like we were in the game. I had been watching football games now, thanks to that dude.

The Kid with the Buckeye's mascot.

The next day, that kid went back to Indiana, it is the first time we met, ( although we had been chatting in facebook) but we get together real fast. Hope he will be a good basketball player one day. I like the lunch that day, it was bak kut teh, I'm drooling when I'm typing this sentence.

It was Christmas eve on Saturday, the third day in Ohio, and I come out with an idea of preparing a Christmas eve meal, so we went to a mart to get some stuff. Fried chicken,pudding, eggnog, spaghetti, and mashed potato, it was a successful feast and everyone was having a great time filling up their stomach.

The Chefs and the Feast!

I spent my Christmas day watching NBA games with my boy, Burger. We literally watched the first match to the last match. And yea, curry chicken for dinner was a great gift for me too by my rommies wify.

And then, so dramas enter the scene. Some dude which I know since my first semester in INTI and used to hangout with us came to Ohio without telling us. That's okay for me, but not even a single Hi after arriving? That ain't cool. And he was staying with my girl friend. All of us knew things ain't easy like friends-visiting.

The Ice Cream.

The buddies.

The sweet couples.

The Fat dogg.

 The Village.

And the Friendship. From left: Me, my buddy, my roomates wify and him.

We went for a movie on Tuesday, and my buddy and I watched The Girl with The Dragon tattoo. It was a nice movie as I should say, only if you like movies that needed deep thoughts. The next day, we went downtown Columbus to have some Jenis ice-cream. I choose the whisky-vanilla ice-cream, foolishly hoping that it will get me drunk. We then visit the German village. The houses were all build in a unique way, they were all cute and nice. We went on to Schiller park and went home for dinner.

The next day was the day the final piece of the FourHorsemen to arrive. We went for some Karaoke that night. I sang some songs and, the girl came to my mind again. Sometimes, when you are doing something, you would think of a girl, because what you are doing meant something to you and her, and that's love, my buddy and I both agree on this one.

We watched The adventure of TinTin on Friday. Yes, movie again. Later that night, we watched The Hangover  in my roommates room. It is a great movie. The mix of comedy, adventure, and friendship, all in one. Two great movies in a day made my day awesome. But, the drama I mentioned goes on.

On New year eve, we hang out in a cafe playing scrabble and countdown, yea, just within our group of 8. It's hard to get into a bar when all of us are still underage.

We spent the next two days at home, while my girl friend baked some cookies for us. It taste great, I like it when the choc chips melt in my mouth. We did some sushi too. It ain't that hard to make a sushi though.

Ever seen four guys making sushi?

The day before I return to Milwaukee, all 3 of us went to class with my roommate. We attended the Psychology class and Physic class, our first day in OSU. My buddy and I went back to OSU court to ball in the evening and we lost again. Quite disappointed but that will be one of the reason I'm going back to Columbus.

Departure is always the hardest thing to face. After 10 hours of bus, I'm back in Milwaukee again. Living my life and chasing my dreams alone. I had rest enough with my brothers, my comrades in Ohio. It is time for me to get myself back to the game. While I'm writing this article, I'm already missing the cookies, the cakes, the memories, and of course, my families in the States.

We lived together for two years in M'sia. We came from different place, but we are chasing the same dream. 

They are the one that letting me know that I'm not running alone. They are my nakama(comrades in japanese).

Ganbate minnasan!